aching heart

So most of you know that we live in my in-laws basement..well they are freaks about dog hair so my dog paloma was not allowed to go upstairs with all of us and she had to stay down stairs and she was getting really discouraged(don't blame her) I tried to stay down stairs as much as i could but with no tv and it being a dark basement it was hard to stay all day with her..When we lived in our house we never had any problems with her and she plays with Bella so good..But I think the living situation got the best of her and she bit bella the other day..it broke my heart, Bella was fine but I felt so awful for my daughter but yet i felt palomas pain too (call me crazy if you want to i don't care) so to say the least we had to get rid of her and i am so heart broken..She was my buddy and i loved her so much..if you are not a dog person you won't understand I can't make my husband and his family understand why i am so sad and why I can't just get over it..I know what paloma did was bad but my heart still aches!!

So i don't really know how to write what im feeling but i need to get it out somehow even if its just for myself to read.. Why do people think that parents getting divorces are only hard when the kids are little? It sucks because im an adult and she be able to handle but there are days when i just want to scream and cry all at the same time..I love my parents to death and I am glad they like to talk to me but sometimes my mom will just act like its nothing to me and I get off the phone and have a melt down.. I do want them to be happy don't get me wrong but sometimes I just wish people would understand that just because Im an adult i might be having a hard time still...

Bella!

So i finally got Bella's one year old pictures done..although if you want to be technical she is actually 13 months! Sorry if the picture is a little blurry I held the picture up and took a picture of it with my digital camera.. Its hard to believe my little girl is already one it seems like i just had her yesterday. Bella is definitely the best thing Ive ever done in my life!